happy fathers day,mom.

As much as i loved being "daddy's little girl" once i have come to face the fact that it will never be the same.My parents divorce was i believe 7 years ago.The first year my dad got us every other weekend.After that year i think he gave up on being a father.He had girlfriend after girlfriend after girlfriend.They are all that mattered to him.That doesn't matter anymore more though,my mom had the best position out there,to play 2 roles.Day after day she was father and mother whether it was dance classes or sports she was always there.I think i got lucky and was still able to get the best of both worlds regardless of an absent parent.My mom always did everything in her power to give us the best life, even if it meant she would miss out on things.So i wanna take the time out to thank the best mother/father i have ever had, and i would never go back and have it any other way. Happy Father's Day Mom

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grampas girl





So..where to begin this one. 2011 has not been a good year for so many people i know. People losing loved ones, people hurting, people finding out exactly who they are? People come and go but will always leave footprints on our hearts. We are always told things happen for a reason. but why does that reason have to hurt? it is starting to hit me that my grampa has been gone 6 years now this november.

He was more than my grampa he was a best friend i could always count on. It wasn't till recently i started visiting the cemetary alot. I felt like everything exciting that would happen in my life i had to drive up there just to talk about it to him. I know he listened.(PS:the blue gems around the stone are supposed to be taken off and cleaned monthly, i believe they got tired of cleaning them off so they eventually left them on, always the best for grampa) For all of those who do not know by know my grampa was veteran. he had a puprle heart. The cemetary he is buried in is a beautiful military one. Even though i miss him i still get to see him,i dream of him almost every night. In my dreams he always finds me wandering and helps me back home until i get to see him again. On the other hand my gramma still takes it hard. me and my mom keep her busy and her mind of things for the most part. We will always be her girls, she will never be alone. I know till this day my grampa is smiling down on me and im making him more proud than ever. Everything i do is for him. He knows i am lucky to call myself his grand daughter. I will await the day i get to eat german pancakes with him again,until then i can officially say i have one of the best guardian angels out there who keep pushing me to strive for more..and for you i am blessed <3 RiP Grampa i will see you on monday.

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NOT so happy easter....shopping!

Easter....I love easter...i love the whole concept of it...what i love even more every year is fighting with all the rude people at walmart who have failed to shop ahead of time..i admit it i'm failing on my "get holiday shopping 2 months done ahead of time." you know everyone goes around saying HAPPY HALLOWEEN..im all..halloween shiiiit im already christmas shopping haven't you seen walmart. any ways back to the main point. I HATE SHOPPING 2 HOURS BEFORE EASTER STARTS. yes i said it..i shop for easter..but yes no kids...i fill a basket for edgar. he loves it(just incase he ever denies it.) this year i actually got lucky between all the mobs at walmart and the completely cleaned out easter shelves. Needless to say edgar is lucky i found that last blue basket..or he wouldv'e ended up with a pink one. well hey its the thought that counts right?

So instead of leaving the "easter bunny" carrots to eat..she has sent me a request saying she prefers a fruit plate with a couple cosmos. You will be making her very happy.

sugar and spice and everything with....life?

It been a while since iv'e written something here. I guess i will just do an update. I ended up getting a 2nd job which has completely messed up my whole routine with sleep,school, etc. When im not asleep im at work and when im not at work im asleep. You can kinda say i have definetely been slacking in school. which will change...I MUST get my head on straight. i just really hope i can juggle it all without having a breakdown. I already feel like im losing my mind. Its like im always taking 1 step forward and 5 back. Its one thing after another...thats all for today..im actually gonna close this one with a thought never take anything for granted, always kiss your loved ones good night and constantly remind each person how much they mean to you you never know if they will be there when you wake up.

On the 4th day of christmas.....i ran out of tissues:/

So i have been sick since thanksgiving practically i feel this sickness is NEVER gonna go away. Other than that december seems to be an exciting month:) We move tomorrow into our new place i will definetely post pictures soon when we have everything up. We get our cable hooked up on wednesday with 3 free months of STARZ. yayy and 24-7 we WILL have the lifetime movie network:). We are doing christmas eve at our place.. and YES that means i am making dinner..(thank god i have renters insurance incase something burns down ha) on the other hand heated pools and jacuzzi's and starbucks every morning... i think so:)

The future I have thanks to him

Edgar Pena is his name, my life became a total turn around april 6th 2008. The things he has done for me i can't explain. He walked in at the perfect time. Even though i tell him i love him more and more everyday..that just sums up what i really wanna say..What i really wanna say is without you,  wouldn't be where i'm at in my life. I wouldn't have succeeded in so many things..or pushed so hard to get what i want and he would always remind me i always deserved it. He has believed in me since day one and thanks to that i have had so much motivation. Everyday he makes me feel like i'm a better person and in his eyes he makes me feel as perfect as i can be. I know i may be to young to say this..but i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him...he really is the piece that was missing out of my life and thanks to him i am whole. I will always love you babe and thank you for everything you have done, you have no idea how special you are to me.<3

Snips and snails and puppy dog tails

Yessss....i understand that's what we say boys and i feel like i'm a guy for how beat up i am at the moment. i burnt my hand sooo bad the other day on the stove as u can tell from my facebook pictures. now my poor elbow looks like i was beaten lol i have a friend that is a wannabe quarterback and was practicing her takling haha well i think i have broken or sprained everything on my body at least once! everything from my nose to fingers and from arms to legs...sometimes i feel im a walking disaster waiting to happen lol then u have people like my brother who has jumped off roof tops and fallen off just about everything u can ride...and has NEVER broken a bone in his body..BUT not to mention he has been pushed into a wall and needed stiches and has had the top of the skin on his head chipped off by a golf club and by the wayit took i think like 10 staples to get the top of his skin to stay on lol  all i can say is thank god for insurance!!!

Behind the smile

i feel like writing about myself...weird things that people may not know:)

• i LOVE cheese! i could eat a block of cheese by myself
• i get so excited when i get a new pack of pens,pencils or highlighters
• i get stressed out VERY easily :/ urgh
• to fall asleep i grind my teeth to the beat of a song i heard on the radio that day
• i HATE animal abuse commercials i cry everytime
• I have cried in just about every lifetime movie there is out there
• i LOVE to drive with my heat on high and the windows down when its freezing outside
• 2 years ago i ran over a rabbit and till this day it haunts me:( RIP thumper
• i draw imaginary lines in my head when i vacumn..lol
• i LOVE miley cyrus songs:)
• i love the feeling on my head when people braid my hair
• i used to think leann rhymes was my sister ha
• i always sing along with 2 commercials..the kia soul and the hefty garbage back commercials:)

hmmmm thats all i can think of for now:)

Yesterday can blow up

Thanks to taylor i decided to make a blog since it seems like everything that can happen to anyone always finds a way to happen to me. So as most of you know since me and edgar got an apartment you need that renters insurance whatever stuff. So my day started off by talking to a guy on like some foreign number since he drove away with his phone on top of the car...classic. so im trying to get a quote and it sounds like there is a frickn zoo on the other side of the phone. Next i'm trying to get my APS account started..well thank you very much to the lady who decided to never call me back i LOVE that you do your job...NOT. and everyone keep a note to self on NEVER getting a membership at LA FITNESS! you will NEVER i repeat NEVER be able to get a hold of anyone in corporate or ever be able to cancel it because one, corporate has a non working number and two, they never read there cancellation forms! and don't get me started on netflix, i had a free trial and you put your debit card in and it authorizes it so if you wanna keep it longer than a month, well they didn't just authorize my card, they charged me for my FREE trial. i guess nothing is ever free in this world is it? then stupid QWEST charged me and installation charge when I MYSELF connected my internet. needless to say I WANT A REFUND! Just when i thought my day wouldn't get any worse..i go home to get my phone charger and the stupid semi truck that had NO flaps behind his tires threw a huge rock out from under his car and hit my windsheild, needless to say i been on the phone filling a claim for a new windshield with my insurance. THANK YOU MOTHER NATURE.